I wonder how I would draw 5-10 years from now :l

No, seriously. I'm only 14 right now (going to be 15 in January) and I think my art looks horrible D: (I'm so pessimistic..) but I always like to improve.

Lately, I haven't been drawing much but I hope to continue practicing. But, since sophomore year is coming.. AP and Honors classes will take over my life, BUT, I will continue to practice! (between ever freakin` break that I get :< )

School's going to start in 2 days. I've been getting on and off depression (maybe I'm just being bipolar ) and I get bad mood swings. My monthly (girls, you should know) is over and I feel angry at every little thing (uh-oh, my anger management is coming up too o__o;; ) and I've been trying to show that I'm a happy, cheerful person. I think that sometimes it feels better to laugh and pretend to be that retarded girl who yells a lot around my friends then to be crying. It feels better.. Crying goes no where.

One time, I had a conversation with a friend who hasn't really been there for us. I said to her, "I think everyone hates me " [yes, with the smile, and I was just trying to test her, she hasn't been a friend at all this year] and she replied in her stupid snobby manner, "If everyone hates you why are you smiling?" and I thought about why I did it.

I do it because I'd rather everyone see me as a happy person then that stupid depressed split personality I have. But no, I know that my friends don't hate me so that makes ME feel happy, so I'll continue to store away my depressed personality for the happy, bubbly one I have now.

Sorry for the rant :< needed to let out some steam. (inteaded to be a pun considering I'm sweating in this heat. Seriously.)